Nothing like a little trip to L and D

to help put things in perspective. The last few days have been challenging with Ben. I had my appt with my new doctor today. I liked him and the office. It reminds me of my old office. He was attentive and understanding. He was also personable. His nurse was really kind too. All in all I am happy with my decision. I had a hard time getting Ben to sleep this afternoon which was not what I needed, especially since I was cramping. I laid down for a while and nothing changed so I called my new doctor. He suggested I head on down to L and D. By the time I got there the cramping had pretty much stoppped. They did a FFN test, which was negative. And they couldn't really find a cause for the cramping. I am ok with that. I stayed 15 minutes extra and had my ultrasound with the perinatologist. My cervix is still long and closed, believe it or not. It's weird to have my body being so cooperative. I didn't realize how much I had taken it for granted until I was driving down to the hospital. Things can change in just an hour. I am really grateful for it though.
While I was in Labor and Delivery I realized that I was bothered by the fact that the staff and nurses kept going on with their lives, talking about mundane irrelevant things. It seems like their lives should hang in the brink like mine did. I know that's unfair, but oh well. Anyway, things are good. I am very lucky that things ended the way they did.